When its coming apart, you had it all
It wasn't enough, no its not enough
They tell you its not worth the price
So just let it go
But you know you can't, you know you won't
Its not easy, no, finding the words to say
When you're feeling lost
You'll find your way
The world is so broken and sometimes it leaves you cold
And at times you can’t feel the fire to guide you home
The demons will haunt you and try to steal what you know
But the angels, they brought you and they’re gonna hold you up.
They see fear in your eyes, heart sinks like a stone
‘Cause when you’re afraid, it weighs on your soul
(Hold You Up by Shane Harper)
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I am not sure what I believe about angels or demons. I know what I learned in church or seminary but what I have actually experienced or believe is probably a different matter. I know I have plenty of “demons” of my own without blaming what’s wrong on forces outside of me.
Recently my spiritual director said something that has stuck with me though. She spoke of places in our life marked by an unusual intensity, struggle, or maybe even evil. She said something like this, Where there is a spiritual battle, the Kingdom is always waiting to break through.
Just before summer, I confided things to Jason I never thought would live in my soul let alone come out of my mouth - really sad things, tired things, things that scared me. We were pressed on every side and some of the information that came our way about this Lyme journey completely broke my heart and left me gasping for air. It was a breaking point. Who can live with this? I wondered.
I was too heartbroken and tired to care about the sinkhole and suffocating in it.
I was too heartbroken and tired to care about the sinkhole and suffocating in it.
