As a traveller - Don't be gazing at that mountain or river in the distance saying,
"How shall I get over them?"
But keep to the present little inch that is before you and
accomplish in the moment that which belongs to it. The mountain and the river can only be passed in the same way;
and when you come to them you will come to the light and strength that belong to them.
I have tried to contain my hopes and expectations for this one appointment. It's called foreboding joy, avoiding disappointment and heartache. And I am tired of Lyme breaking my heart. It feels like so much is riding on finally talking with someone knowledgable and experienced in working with late stage Lyme. We have so many questions.
The night before I left to come to the States, I was laying on my yoga mat listening to our instructor talk about letting go. She encouraged us, with each slow breath out to release tension and tightness and say LET.IT.GO.
As I did this, I almost starting weeping. I realized my body along with everything else is holding many questions, expectations, fears and hopes for this appointment and how we move into treatment.
Your prayers are appreciated as I go tomorrow. I am praying for discernment, peace in our decision-making, trust despite the many unknowns that will undoubtedly remain and a few solid answers to help us find our way.
Trust, peace and hope seem to be more abundant when I humbly attend to the inch in front of me, recognizing that when I get to the mountain, I will be given what is needed to make the climb.
